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Hey Guys! been so long eh.. i know.. ._.

okay.. i hate to tell you this.. but, honestly.. i'm only half alive. you know.. i miss my rockstar so bad..  it's not easy to live my life without him. without my best friend, my hero, my dad.. it's just start.. killing me softly, really. hmm, maybe you guys never met him before. but trust me he's the most amazing guy in my life. he's very lovely, amazing person, very kind, funny, never get angry, the most caring, generous, charming, amazing guitarist and singer, and the most important things are he's always be there for me.. and always love me for who am i. no matter what happened. 

of course i never thought that one day i'd be losing him. i just never can let him go. never ever... it still doesn't seem real for me. i just want an answer for my question. 'WHY?' that's it. but until today, no answer.. i need him so bad.. i tried to scream, but i don't know how many times must i scream out his name. i love him more than the world will ever know. he is someone who hold me when i cry, shine with pride when i succeed, has faith in me even when i fail.. and he gave me the greatest gift.. he believed in me.. 

well, this one is for you dad.. i hope you can read this post like you used to...

Dad,

You showed me how to laugh,

You showed me how to cry,
And everytime i think of you, i look up at the sky.


Sweet memories come flooding back of everything you did
I smile really, really big Dad, just like a little kid.


Dad, when you passed, i felt you float away,
And you know Dad, when the sky gets sad, the clouds get in the way
The angles were there waiting,
So that you would not get lost or stray.


because i'm sure Dad, that everytime you looked back,
You wanted to come home to stay.
I hope that you're resting, and at peace as well.
Because Dad, i want to say that you were the "Best Dad"


So i'm writing this to tell you, i miss you with ALL my heart,
But i know Dad that someday we will never be apart.
So if by chance it happens,
I know that you'll be there.
We'll laugh and cry again Dad,
and dance the night away.




"Someday i'll find my prince, but my daddy always be my king"

i'm sucks at grammar. but i hope you guys get it well.. sorry ._.