Ai

I knew that you would said that.

I knew that you would look at me like that.

I knew that you would avoid me like this.

I knew everything. I don't know how, but i just knew.

Sometimes i just can see it clearly on your face when you tried so hard to hide it.

But why i feel so sad?

Is it because i always hope that everything i feel inside was not real?

Or maybe I'm not ready to hear the truth from you?

I never felt like this before.

Because for 8 months you were everything that i see.

I'm so lost, i don't know where to go.

And i still can feel the joy whenever i see you.

I always rewind all the memories with you before i go to sleep.

Yes. It is you. Just you.

I know you have someone better than me who cares about you,

and love you, or maybe deserve you better than me.

But i still care. I think i will always care.

Maybe they are right. You are the first person who make me feel like this.

And i won't forget this feeling for my entire life.

To be honest, i'm broken. I always try to hide it from everyone that i'm sad.

Because now i have to face the truth that i will never be with you.

Not even for a day.

You and me are in a different game anyway.

I don't think i can make you feel comfortable like the way you do to me.
I don't think i can make you smile like the way you make me smile.

I don't have that kind of knowledge.

I cannot even compete with my own friend. 

I'm so afraid that you will feel comfortable with her more than with me. 

But it doesn't matter know.

Because you won't care after all.
It's okay. I know.

At least you have my rocket drawing and whenever you feel down,

you still can see that someone faraway still care for you.

And that is me.

Even when you don't want it.

Lost

"Someone likes you"

"Oh, ok."

"What do you mean okay? Say something please."

"I mean, what can i do about it? I have a girlfriend."

...

If you push me away, i will leave, remember?

I'm not gonna try harder to stay this time.

I'm tired.

Take a Walk

Yesterday...... hmmmmm.. what a day.
I didn't know what to feel.
I asked everyone to go to Kerry Park with me but only 2 people replied.
And they could not go.
Someone i trust lied to me,
I was moving around without direction and don't know who to trust anymore.
Someone using me.
I felt so alone and mad.
Well it end up as a lesson though.
Nevermind.

Walking to the bus stop..

(Morgan St and 35th Ave SW)

Downtown Seattle

(Tick Tock, was waiting for the street light to turn green)

Downtown Seattle

(Walking to grab some candies!)

I was so dissapointed because i went to my friend's home but no one opened the door for me....

So, i decided to go to the dorm............ Even though i didn't want to..

But Cathy asked me to go to see the apartment near there and treated me to watch The Legend of OZ..

But before that we ate at the Einstein Bros Bagels!

Broadway - Einstein Bros Bagels

(It's really good!!)

Regal Meridian

I met my twin.. LOL

Toothless!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(It supposed to be at the inside and near the studios so people could not take a picture if they don't watch the movie. But, after i took a picture with it they moved it to the front side so everyone can take a selfie with Toothless!)

The best banner ever................

My studio... No one else was there... Well, there were 6 more people inside though...

But still.... MINE

After that i went eat Udon with Marcella at University District..... and then went HOME!!



Cheers,


Antonio

Oblivion

Goodnight,


Antonio